He's In The Waiting

As I was driving home from work yesterday, I was thinking about this adoption. There are a lot of unanswered questions that Austin and I have right now.

How will the funding come together?
Will we have to take out a loan?
How will having an adoption loan payment affect our ability to build the house we've been planning?
Can we afford it all?
When will we even be able to begin building our house?
Should we wait until after the adoption is finalized?
I could go on and on!

It's so easy to become overwhelmed by all the unknowns, and believe me, I've had my moments! I've melted down to Austin because it all seems so impossible. I've been negative. I've even had a couple of moments when I told Austin maybe we shouldn't do this. It's too hard!

But those are the moments when God does something to comfort me and reassure me that He is in control. For example, yesterday as I was thinking about how hard this all is, the Christian song called "Take Courage" came on in my car. The song says, "Take courage, my heart. Stay steadfast, my soul. He's in the waiting."

GOD IS IN THE WAITING!

Waiting is ridiculously hard! I do not enjoy it AT ALL! I'm far too impatient, but the reminder that my God is literally IN THE WAITING with me is all I need! He has a plan, and there is nothing I can do to mess it up. If God is truly calling us to adopt a newborn, HE will make it happen. He will be there as we wait. He knows the answers to all my questions, and He will reveal it all in the right time. I just have to trust and keep my faith.

This is, by far, the biggest step of faith we have ever taken! A lot of money, time, resources, and work are going into this, and we have to have faith that it's all going to work out according to God's will. We must keep going. Even when things are frustrating. Even when it looks like all of our earthly plans will be put on hold in the process. Even when it means making huge sacrifices. Even when we have no idea how any of it will work, we have to keep going. Keep trusting. 2 Corinthians 5:7 says, "For we walk by faith, not by sight." If Austin and I were walking by sight right now, we honestly wouldn't be adopting. It's too hard, and we simply don't know how it's going to work out. We are choosing daily to walk by faith. Allowing the Lord to direct our steps is the only way we can ensure we are following His will!